something to brighten up the day.

 like the bongo. haha. tried to do it, but it hurts a lot! dunno how come he can do it constantly and loudly.

this one also nice!

i never know the original song though :p

haii.. same old same old... they are back again... sighh..both my daily headache and that thing.

i'm stressful enough as it is. i don't need anymore addition to that thank you very much.

do they really care? i doubt it.

i know maybe some have good intentions. thank you very much for that. maybe some just want to satisfy their own curiosity and wants. but what can i do if the person doesn't do anything?? why keep bugging me? why not that person? if they don't keep bugging me, maybe i won't be so defensive like now. maybe i can just let things go naturally. now? i doubt so. makes me hate that person even more. even though it's not his fault.

maybe it's better if i announce i just want to live in celibacy? haha.

i'm tired of this really. i'm sorry i just don't have the patience like my sisters. i'm not good at this thing. really. i'm very sorry if i've hurt a lot of people. i really am sorry.

for those who really care, thank you for your attention to me.

let's see how things will go from here.

working in this consultancy line makes me understand that sweet talk is very very very crucial. hmph. like i can do it... and people expect you to know everything. i'm not encyclopedia okayyy..

i tot in this kind of era people will like a more straightforward conversation, not wasting time.. but i think making other people happy with your words is still very important. haha.

makan ati :(

be patienttttt

been in mellow mode since my eldest sis' wedding..

realized that a lot of things have changed in the past 10 years..

my surabaya home neighbourhood has changed a lot since our family moved there..

no more green field near my school.. remembered that time i was wondering, who would be rich enough to buy such a huge piece of land and to build house on it. now, it's a shop houses area.

there used to be no traffic lights near my junior high school. that little roundabout has gone missing, changed with traffic lights as the cars are getting more and more.

the road in front of my house used to be just normal asphalt, with a lot of ditches here and there. then since.. i think 8 years ago?.. it was changed to pavements.

my room.. now becomes my bro's room.. and now after my sis is married, he will move to her room. and he will be the only one left to live with my parents now. and that won't be for long i believe.

one by one, my parents' children are leaving the house..

we are getting older huh..

wished i can stop the time, when we were the happiest.. i think that was before my 2nd sis went to singapore for further study, when all of us were still in that house, full of laughter and happiness (not everyday though, but we were happy for sure)..

sighh..

i
am
tirreeeeeeeddddddddddddddddddddd


been OT-ing like hell for.. 4 months? forget when was the last time i went back home at 7pm for a full week. hahah.

now going hm at 7pm is a luxury already T.T

and my meeting place get scarier.. one at tuas, the other one at changi. lalalala.. from one extreme to the other extreme.

what a life.

urgghh.. my neck is killing meeee T.T

i think i can go crazy anytime soon if this madness continues for another month.

don't even have enough time to really just pamper my brain. now weekend also can't rest. what a life.

i think my stamina must have been made of steel cos i didn't collapse, not even once until today. ahhaha

happy birthday indonesia! (in another 3 mins :P)

He still is our Father

on tuesday evening, i got a sweet surprise from my pastor. out of a sudden he called and prayed for me. he said there's a sudden urge for him to pray for me. i'm glad that he did :) thanks ko...

there's one statement in his prayer that pierced through my heart.

"thank you for your faithfulness in serving the Lord. you are His child, forevermore you are His sweet child. ... don't you ever be worried about your happiness. he will provide..."


i'm His child. forevermore i will still be His child. and He forevermore is my ever-so-patient father. remember.

often i disappoint Him. but.. He never does the same to me. how glad am i to have Him as my heavenly Father :)

God bless!